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A SKULL WITH SNAKES + fiction by Molly O’Brien

WITH SNAKES

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Chris is weeping in my arms and I mash my lips together and think about how he’s paying me 30 bucks an hour to weep in my arms.

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This is the part of the job that I hate the most: when they start wigging out and I have to comfort them. It’s all mostly funny up until this point—they tell me dirty secrets from middle school or whatever silly hallucinations they see, like pigs with wings and vaginas with eyeballs, and I say mmm hmm and smile and giggle to myself. But once they wig, I have to get serious.

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My tripper is wigging now. His name is Chris and he’s 28 years old and just a minute ago I had to wrestle him into the fetal position and snuggle him like he’s a baby. This is the only way it works, especially on RFX, which, when it gets bad, tends to make you feel like you’re the last person on Earth, that all the people are dead and even the tumbleweeds have tumbled away. Happened to me during training and I just about lost my mind. It takes a serious maternal presence to reverse the shitty side of RFX.

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(I had to start lifting free weights at the gym to get the biceps necessary for the wrestling-into-fetal-position part of the job. The men used to look at me funny, but now they don’t look at me at all.)

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“I don’t wanna look at this stuff anymore,” he sobs into my stomach. Few things are more uncomfortable to wear than a t-shirt soaked with tears.

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“What stuff? Tell me what you see, Chris.” In training they tell you to get them to narrate their bad trips. Narration stimulates the cerebral cortex. If they’re lucky, they get distracted from their terror, or if they’re really lucky, they break through and have some kind of important revelation. The ones who have revelations tip me really well.

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“Shadows. Big shadows. Shadows in a mountain. With a bunch of bats. And a skull with snakes. Lining the walls of a cave. Bats and skulls and snakes in a cave.” The way he sobs “cave” sounds like cay-hay-hay-hayve.

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He’s just about inconsolable at this point so I start doing last resort moves. I rub his scalp—he has a buzz cut—in little circles with my fingertips, and I start humming. I hum long low notes. I hum and turn into that moment of understanding Chris probably had when he was a kid and he touched his father’s hi-fi speakers and realized he could feel music, and that a long low constant vibration was pure comfort. People forget these things, you know. I hum and I hum and he can feel it through my stomach. He goes from sobbing to mumbling to silent. Silent and breathing softly.

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At bad moments, like right now, I start feeling guilty. I feel guilty because these people hire me to watch them as they trip, to make sure they don’t swallow their tongues or scratch their skin off or jump out the window, and I do these things, and I do them well. But I wonder if they have these horrible moments because I’m around—if, by having the foresight to call the agency and request my presence, they are in fact ensuring their bad trip. If, by being around to protect them from the dark side, I turn into the dark side. If I’m just a messenger of doom.

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Chris falls asleep in my lap and I sit for forty minutes until he wakes up.

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“Did I say anything crazy?” he asks me. He rubs his eyes and smiles and looks goofy and serene.

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“You said all kinds of crazy things.” I rise, shake his hand with my right hand, shield the wet stains on my shirt with my left forearm. His money is already in my bag, in an envelope, with all the presidents’ heads facing the same direction. I have to limp down his stairs. My foot fell asleep when Chris was asleep on me. It’s pins and needles all the way home.
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MOLLY O’BRIEN is a goldfish staring at a tiny hole in the plastic baggie that is her home.

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